Hey people,
I'm finally back.Last time I deleted the blog because...err..some weird reasons.U see,I was in a stage of my life where one is quite vulnerable to the senseless talks of this earth.OK,let's get practical now.I'm an adult.Being an 
adult has its own profits and losses.I am gonna celebrate my 19th Birthday next month.Actually,'celebrate' would be wrong.I never ever celebrated my day(after my 8th Birthday) when I crossed another milestone of my life.A milestone on Earth.Last time,my parents forgot my Day.I don't blame them.Reason being,the next day was a very important day of my life-admission to Miranda House college,Delhi.The apprehension,tension,etc.was legal.They wished me later.Interestingly,my friends..ahem,classmates remembered my Day.Thank you,guys.At least you remembered.I had a strong notion when I was in School,which was-PEOPLE REMEMBERED ME ONLY WHEN THEY WANTED ME TO HELP THEM IN SCHOOL WORK.I wasn't unpopular in school,but I was very much neglected and keep aside.Thanks to Sam Blitz.My name was in tatters.In school,they freak the hell outta you when you can't say anything.I was a victim because I was quiet and shy.I thought giving 100% in a relationship called FRIENDSHIP was a virtue,a quality which was hard to find,a merit that had it's own value and cannot be compared to any other quality.It was purest and selfless.Well,now when I'm 18+,I know the pros and cons of having such 'angel-like' thoughts.
adult has its own profits and losses.I am gonna celebrate my 19th Birthday next month.Actually,'celebrate' would be wrong.I never ever celebrated my day(after my 8th Birthday) when I crossed another milestone of my life.A milestone on Earth.Last time,my parents forgot my Day.I don't blame them.Reason being,the next day was a very important day of my life-admission to Miranda House college,Delhi.The apprehension,tension,etc.was legal.They wished me later.Interestingly,my friends..ahem,classmates remembered my Day.Thank you,guys.At least you remembered.I had a strong notion when I was in School,which was-PEOPLE REMEMBERED ME ONLY WHEN THEY WANTED ME TO HELP THEM IN SCHOOL WORK.I wasn't unpopular in school,but I was very much neglected and keep aside.Thanks to Sam Blitz.My name was in tatters.In school,they freak the hell outta you when you can't say anything.I was a victim because I was quiet and shy.I thought giving 100% in a relationship called FRIENDSHIP was a virtue,a quality which was hard to find,a merit that had it's own value and cannot be compared to any other quality.It was purest and selfless.Well,now when I'm 18+,I know the pros and cons of having such 'angel-like' thoughts.People understand these things even when they are of 14-15 years.But I was different.Maybe,because,I thought everybody else around was similar to me.It was too late when I was aware of the little misdeeds that happened in school.With Me.I'm sure these things still happen in an Institution which we call ****** School ruled by a fat lady,indifferent to emotions,popular as Megahertz.Classmates made life unbearable,and the principal made it worse.I often wondered-does time remain the same?for everybody?It surely doesn't because nothing in the Universe is permanent,the teacher had said once,I remember.
Sure enough,it was late though to get these words in my mind,etched permanently.But things changed when I came to MH.Delhi,they say,is a place that can never be good.Unless,one is studying there.But are all students good?They aren't.Rules are rules,we were told at home.But college is like,Rules are made to be BROKEN.Hah...that's weird.Till some time.But I remained the same shy and disciplined girl like I was in my hometown.College gives you the freedom to do whatever you want but eventually you start feeling strange because there's nobody to care.There are a couple of wimps that stand beside you,talk to you,solve questions with you,but it's nothing like care.The emotion that overpowers everything,that feeling which can defeat a hater.Then you start feeling different.Once you know,you're free and there's nobody to question you for anything.
"School is pathetic,College is better".For me,both are equivalent.Primarily because,I was alone at school,I'm still alone in college.During schooldays,I was the one who was updated with everything,whatever.In college,I have a 100%attendance.Maybe,that small girl,disciplined and studious,is still deep inside.The difference lies in the fact that my schoolmates made my life a mess and college mates make it worse.My roommate makes it hell.I do have friends,who are less similar to the ones who think boyfriends are a mark of prestige.The truth is they don't hang around all the time.I get my shopping done alone.And yes,I haven't been able to make a single boyfriend.I have much more things to think about than carrying a piece of cracked brain around me 24x7.I am not a feminist but the whole idea makes me puke.Delhi boys,are pathetic.All they care for is complexion,no matter if the girl is really dumb,it's complexion,which matters(as if,complexion brings grain in the house!!).They also want girls who are beautiful(read:fair).I mean,isn't this absurd?In school,I was said,a guy looks for brains first.What do I see now?OMG!Delhi is stupid.When it comes to the brain of guys.They have their brains in their knees.And they are unused as well.
Sometimes,I feel,school was best.But then,college?It's better,I feel lately.Reason being,nobody bothers.Nobody hovers around.The sad part is,people who are closest are your enemies.Watching out,is important.College life can be miserable,but it's up to you,to make it Heaven...
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